Reflections

I just realized that its been almost four months since I have updated my blog. It does not seem like it has been that long. In many ways things have not changed much in my life to really post anything. I am still looking for a job and waiting for God to answer prayers I have been praying for what seems like forever.
This past week I have been placed in very interesting situations that I literally could do nothing about and had to fully depend on God for His guidance and safety. I am so grateful that I am His daughter and He is my Lord!
The past year has been a time of healing, restoration, growing, learning, and finding out who I truly am. I was asked the question on Thursday: Where will you be in five years? I have learned that you cannot predict what will happen tomorrow. The future is in God's hands. I never would have thought I would be where I am right now a year ago, three years ago, much less five years ago. I have had so many drastic changes in my life to plan a lot. The only plan I have succeeded at obtaining is my college degree. Everything else that I planned on either being or having has yet to come to fruition. At times I cannot help but wonder when is it going to be my turn. Then I remind myself that God has a wonderful plan for my life....this is only the beginning!
In the past three weeks, I have seen friends I have not seen in a very long time and all my best friends in the world as well. I can honestly say that God has given me the best friends I could ever ask for. My heart still aches over friendships that were dissolved and they don't even realize they were the reason that happened. God has made up for it multiple times over. I love my friends!
It was hard to get back to the real world after spring break finished. This week was a rough week on many different levels. I am glad its over. Tomorrow is Sunday and I get to see my kiddos I teach in Sunday School! They are so sweet! My church family has been a huge blessing in my life! It's so amazing how God works! He starts putting things together for me long before I even need it! So amazing!
I guess this is enough ramblings for today. I am still praying and looking for how God will provide my hearts desires! Blessings to all!

Happy New Year!

Good morning 2010! How are you today? What kind of blessings are you going to bring me this year? How am I going to grow this year? What kind of person will I be this year?

As I have reflected on the past year, I have realized many many many things. While 2009 was a good year in many ways, I am so ready for a new year with new things. 2009 brought me friends, truth, forgiveness, blessings, graduation from college, learning to step out on faith, patience (or at least attempt this), learning who I really am and not what I am supposed to be to each person, a new home, a healthier relationship with Christ, learning how to be a better friend, how to enjoy the simple things in life, how to change a shower head, and many more.

In 2010, I hope that I see God answer prayers I have been praying for years. I hope to be a better person, friend, and daughter of God. I hope that I continue learning who I am without having to please everyone around me. I hope 2010 doesn't bring the loneliness that I feel quite often. I plan to stop waiting around so much because I am scared of what will happen. I plan to live my life and not cower down to challenges. I plan to work out 3 to 4 times a week and eat better. I hope to find love in many ways. Most of all, I hope to be used by God this year and off this shelf He has me sitting on.

2009 was a time of growth pains in more than one area. One day, I will be glad of the result. I am glad to see 2009 go but will take what I learned with me forever. I hope 2010 is a better year poured out with blessings from God for me and those I hold so dearly in my heart!

Happy New Year! :)

Ramblings On A Monday

This weekend was the weekend we had Christmas at my Aunt's house. I always enjoy getting together with my family. Like with anything else right now I could not simply let go and enjoy 100% like I normally do because of having worries of what will happen in the next two weeks. I feel like I have a chain around both ankles keeping me in prison waiting for answers. I do love my family. God has blessed me. For the first time in a long time it actually felt like Christmas all weekend long. For someone who is still lacking in the enthusiasm this year, it was great! Now I feel like Christmas is done and it is a huge downer.

I am hoping and praying I hear from a job in the next two weeks. I have no clue when. If this does not work out, I am not sure where else to turn.

There are many many many things on my mind I am working around which would be easier if I had answers.

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas week!

Happy Tuesday Morning!

Well.....God is blessing and giving hope! I am doing follow ups this morning and seeing where God leads.
Last night my friend and I went driving around Rowlett to see the Christmas lights. Our original plan was to drive around for an hour then go to see Old Dogs. Well, it was time for us to go to the theatre and we both were so sad to stop seeing the lights. We decided to go to the late movie and drive around for another hour and half. We still did not cover the city. So many people had beautiful decorations and lights up! A cold front came through while we were driving around so the temps felt like Christmas. It was so windy all of the decorations were whipping around. It was soooo relaxing and theraputic! We were both yawning! We were soo relaxed! It was AMAZING! After looking at lights, we went to see the movie. It was so good! Much better than the commercials dipict.
Blessings to all on this cold sunny day!

Thoughts From The Week

Thoughts from the week......or more like venting on a Friday morning.

1. Why I am I always thinking I am one step ahead, get all excited, then find out I am 12 steps behind?
2. Why can I not get principals to contact me back? I have tried calling, emailing, even went to a school. Yet I still cannot get to the principal, even with an amazing contact!
3. When are they going to get done with this road work?!?!?!? I am stuck listening to it day after day after day after day. Not to mention I had a very bad experience with them this week!
4. Why do I spend an hour cleaning my floors to have the dogs go outside and drag in clumps of black clay all in my house.
5. I am tired of people thinking I do nothing in my job search and are suprised when they hear otherwise.
6. I am in serious need of a mental vacation but cannot take one yet.
7. I hate it when you buy something but cannot find it when you get home. I have checked the reciept and its on there. I have checked the car repeatedly and its not there. Who knows!
8. Why is it this time of year I have so much static electricity? Seriously! I am scared to touch anything!
9. How does one person have so much laundry???
10. Why did they change the Texas State Drivers License? I had to call my aunt to make sure I got the right thing in the mail.

Ok...enough of the negative....now some happy thoughts from the last week!
1. I love my neighbor! Her hubby is out of town this week and she has graciously allowed me to cook dinner for her every night.
2. I made a super yummy cake (this cake came from frusteration with road workers)
3. I love how my neighbor and I spent hours playing with clothes on Wed.
4. I love how God is healing me, molding me, and making me grow right now even though it is painful.
5. I love waking up in the morning to a nice warm bed and two dogs that are cuddled up next to me!
6. I am so grateful for a now working garage door opener so I can pull my car in while they are doing roadwork! WooHoo!
7. I love love love my fireplace during this cold weather!!!!!!!!!
8. I love my fuzzy socks that keep my feet warm on the cold winter days!
8. I love how Freddie comes and tells on himself when he does something wrong! Saves me a lot of time lol.
9. I love love love my dishwasher! I do not think I can ever live without it again!
10. There are presents under my Christmas tree and I love it!!!!!
11. I am so glad God is preparing me for a job and preparing it for me even though I cannot visually see Him at work. This is where faith comes in. (Even though I am ready ready ready to move on, I know it is for the best. He has my best interest at heart and can do a better job at my life than I can even though it hurts immensely. Growing hurts.)

Wishing everyone a blessed weekend!

Ramblings On A Busy Monday Morning

This past week I have been given new hope on the job front. There is a small ISD about 30 min from me that is hiring two positions in the elementary school. I feel a job is so close! On Thursday I sent out prayer requests for this job to all the people I KNOW will pray for me. Friday a sweet lady from the church called saying her daughter was a teacher in a town 20 min from the church and an aid position opened up. She said her daughter had already talked with the principal about me and he said to go to the school. Sunday she asked if I was bilingual. I am not so that throws me out of that. Also at church yesterday I heard of a couple more possibilities and made a few contacts with the ISD's. God is blessing in so many ways! I am so ready for this job! I am praying that God puts me in the place He wants me. Today I will be following up with my new found contacts, cleaning out my closets, and mopping the floors.

25 More Random Facts (It was supposed to be 50 so I split it up)

1. I am obsessed with candle holders.
2. I love a cold house when I go to sleep.
3. My dogs are my children.
4. My favorite verse and I guess saying is 1 Corinthians 13 13 (hence the name of the blog).
5. I am a huge hypocondriac (Remember the girl on My Girl? Well that is me minus the dr trips).
6. I have recently discovered I love black swirls. You look around my livingroom and thats all you see are black swirls lol.
7. I can never ever ever live without a dishwasher again!
8. I have my mothers piano. I want to learn to play but do not. She had a list of things she wanted to teach me before she died and that is the last thing on the list.
9. I never answer the door unless you call or text me.
10. I do not like getting small drinks. When I get a Dr. Pepper I want a Large!
11. I love getting Christmas cards (But the last few years I have moved around so much people do not send them)
12. I love getting handwritten notes in the mail.
13. I just joined a church and for the first time in a long time I feel like I am home when I go there.
14. I cannot stand when people are late! When I am late I feel so bad!
15. I hate bathing dogs!
16. I eat ketchup on scrambled eggs.
17. I only eat white meat on chicken and turkeys.
18. I strongly dislike roadwork (especially when it is in front of my house)
19. I love hot baths (I want a huge bathtub soooo badly)
20. I snore
21. I have no clue about guys (seriously no clue!)
22. I do not like to fold clothes.
23. I love pigs in the blanket!
24. I love camping (one night kind of camping)
25. I have a zebra print blanket that I absolutly love!!!!!!