It has been a while since I posted. Life has become crazy busy! This summer I:
-Moved to Buffalo
-Went to several workshops/trainings
-Worked in my classroom
-and students came back to school last Monday
It has been crazy trying to get everything set up and ready for THE BIG DAY, but everything has gone well! Some days I drive home from work and think about all the awesome things God has blessed me with! He is an amazing God that truly loves me! I could not ask for a better group of people to work around! God is just so good!!! Well...that is all for now! I hope everyone is having a great week!!!
Ps- pics will follow on the projects I worked on this summer (aka therapy lol).
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Alone
Today is Father's Day. I can honestly say I had the best father in the world. He was a hard working man that believed that every would work out for the best when you turn things over to God.
My dad and I didn't really begin our relationship until after the death of my mother. For three years we were nearly best friends. I enjoyed our relationship and enjoyed learning about my father and what my mother put up with for nearly 30 years. I love that man dearly and miss his advice, help, stupid humor, his prayers, and most of all his long hugs that would make everything ok.
One thing nobody tells you after the death of your second parent is how bad the alone feeling can really feel. Daddy passed away 3 years ago this July and I feel more alone than I have in my entire life. Sure, I am somebody's friend and relative. I am towards the last end on their priority list. First comes their spouse, then their children, then other family members, then if I'm lucky, me. I love my friends and family like crazy, but I just don't think anyone understands right now. Everyone I know still has family in their household or still has their parents.
If you still have your parents, call them! Talk to your parents! Life is fragile and valuable! Express your love to them today!
My dad and I didn't really begin our relationship until after the death of my mother. For three years we were nearly best friends. I enjoyed our relationship and enjoyed learning about my father and what my mother put up with for nearly 30 years. I love that man dearly and miss his advice, help, stupid humor, his prayers, and most of all his long hugs that would make everything ok.
One thing nobody tells you after the death of your second parent is how bad the alone feeling can really feel. Daddy passed away 3 years ago this July and I feel more alone than I have in my entire life. Sure, I am somebody's friend and relative. I am towards the last end on their priority list. First comes their spouse, then their children, then other family members, then if I'm lucky, me. I love my friends and family like crazy, but I just don't think anyone understands right now. Everyone I know still has family in their household or still has their parents.
If you still have your parents, call them! Talk to your parents! Life is fragile and valuable! Express your love to them today!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
And The Countdown Begins........
It is very early Sunday morning and I cannot sleep. I packed up my bedroom today and it just doesn't seem the same. I know it is probably weird but I do not like sleeping in a room with blank walls, a room that once had personality. Now the personality is in boxes :(. The good news is, the entire back half of my house is packed (well...minus my closet...but that will too be finished tomorrow)!!!! Monday I leave for training in Buffalo then back for a busy two weeks till I move! Yippee!
I really am starting to get excited about getting to Buffalo. I am excited about the new house, the new life, and the new job! I am so blessed! God is so good!!! I'm ready to have my house set up down there. I do not like living in a house full of boxes and nothing in its rightful place. My brain is buzzing with all the things I need to organize and get taken care of before I move. Hopefully, I can get most of this knocked off my list this week!
I hope everyone has a great week!
I really am starting to get excited about getting to Buffalo. I am excited about the new house, the new life, and the new job! I am so blessed! God is so good!!! I'm ready to have my house set up down there. I do not like living in a house full of boxes and nothing in its rightful place. My brain is buzzing with all the things I need to organize and get taken care of before I move. Hopefully, I can get most of this knocked off my list this week!
I hope everyone has a great week!
Monday, June 7, 2010
I GOT THE HOUSE!!!!!!
Yep! You got it! I got the house in Buffalo! Yippee!!!!! Next week I will know more about a move in date! :) Now I get to start on the million and one things that needs to get done to move. I have been packing a little along the way, but not aggressively attacking it like I need to. This changed today! Here is a tiny post-it of what I need to get done this week:
-pack (obviously)
-clean (company is coming next weekend and I will be in training next week)
-take both dogs to the vet for their shots and sugars doggy prozac for traveling (keep in mind I have to take one at a time. there goes two mornings :()
-cut down bedroom furniture boxes in the garage (this is a time consuming job. Only so much can go in my recycling can.)
-I get to have dinner with a sweet friend from church tomorrow!
-need to go shopping for a washer and dryer (both are dying and it would cost more to fix it than to get new....plus the dryer gets way too hot while it is drying. I am so scared it will catch the house on fire!)
-shop for a fridge (the house doesn't have one.....so any ideas on how to get good appliances at good prices let me know)
-shave mr freddie
I hope everyone has a great week!!!!!
-pack (obviously)
-clean (company is coming next weekend and I will be in training next week)
-take both dogs to the vet for their shots and sugars doggy prozac for traveling (keep in mind I have to take one at a time. there goes two mornings :()
-cut down bedroom furniture boxes in the garage (this is a time consuming job. Only so much can go in my recycling can.)
-I get to have dinner with a sweet friend from church tomorrow!
-need to go shopping for a washer and dryer (both are dying and it would cost more to fix it than to get new....plus the dryer gets way too hot while it is drying. I am so scared it will catch the house on fire!)
-shop for a fridge (the house doesn't have one.....so any ideas on how to get good appliances at good prices let me know)
-shave mr freddie
I hope everyone has a great week!!!!!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
The Greatness Of A Saturday!
I love Saturdays! I love Saturdays during summer! They are the best! This morning I woke up with a to do list that could take me from here to Mexico. How much of that to do list did I get done? Probably about 4 things! I couldn't even get out of the county on that! But, I dont care. I have had a wonderful day! Today I have:
-Slept in
-Cleaned out the fridge (for those of you who know me, know this is a chore I put off until a hazmat team has to come in and clear everything out!)
-Cleaned the kitchen
-Did laundry
-Watched 4 hours of Real Housewives of New Jersey (That was the distracting point. I sat down for lunch and they had a marathon going! That is my summer guilty indulgance.)
-Spent hours on the phone with a great and precious friend.
-Gave some much needed love and attention to my two wonderful furry babies.
-Now I am about to get things ready for church tomorrow!
I hope everyone has had a great Saturday and will have an equally great Sunday!!!!!!
-Slept in
-Cleaned out the fridge (for those of you who know me, know this is a chore I put off until a hazmat team has to come in and clear everything out!)
-Cleaned the kitchen
-Did laundry
-Watched 4 hours of Real Housewives of New Jersey (That was the distracting point. I sat down for lunch and they had a marathon going! That is my summer guilty indulgance.)
-Spent hours on the phone with a great and precious friend.
-Gave some much needed love and attention to my two wonderful furry babies.
-Now I am about to get things ready for church tomorrow!
I hope everyone has had a great Saturday and will have an equally great Sunday!!!!!!
Friday, June 4, 2010
My Family
I am up late tonight. I am missing some very important people in my life right now and that is preventing me from sleeping. I think I will just write to see if I feel better.
I am 23 years old. I am moving now for the 4th time in 4 years. The closet I packed up today had three different boxes from three different funerals from each of my family members that have gone on before me. The first box is of my sisters funeral. She passed away five years before I was ever born. I never met her. In pictures we look exactly alike up until the point I passed her in age. I never knew my sister. I sat there and read all the kind words people I never even met written to my parents during their time of grief. I also looked at her obituary and remembered every single July and December we took flowers Momma and I arranged to place on her headstone. Then came my mothers funeral box. I do remember this one. This at the time was the most devistating event that I could have ever thought of to happen. I sat there and read all the encouraging words that people this time wrote to my father and me. I also remember feeling so numb for months after her death and just going through life. I remember stuffing my feelings so deep inside so noone ever knew how hard it was for me. This was a huge mistake. Feelings have a way of coming back out. The longer and more you stuff, the worse they are when they show up. I sat there today and read her obituary. How can anyone write a simple paragraph to sum up my mothers life? They just listed the facts, but that obituary did not show what a wonderful person my mother was. For weeks after her death, I had horrible nightmares about it. It got to the point I did not want to go to sleep. The next box I got to was my fathers. This was a man I always loved, but we were just becoming friends. He was a man that loved his family and loved to fish. He was a loner that needed his quiet time. It was difficult for him to trust anyone because in his life, most people used him as a stepping stone. When I found out he had cancer, I did not think I could handle going through all of that again. I did not realize how difficult it was having a parent with cancer and the emotional stress I was under. I had lived with it with my mother from the time I was eight. It was then that I realized the strain it puts on loved ones and I did not want to enter into that once again. We got daddy's diagnosis in May and he died in July of 2007. That was hard to watch my superhero daddy fade away while death took him daily. As I looked through his box today, I remember feeling so alone. I miss my daddy like crazy! I would do anything to have him hold me and tell me everything will work out one way or another. This coming from the man that spent six months figuring out if he wanted to buy a car or not and going over things over and over and over just to make sure. Although daddy often sucked at advice, I would still love to be able to tell him my problems just to know I had an ally in my corner no matter what! Once again, after his death, I stuffed my feelings. It hurt too bad to deal with it. I also didn't want anyone to know I was struggling so. For the past three years, neither did I. After daddy died, I jumped back into college. That kept me busy. This last year God stripped away all the distractions in my life. He dealt with me one on one. It took a while for me to get what He was doing. He was trying to heal my heart. Since my mother died, I had blamed God for taking her away from me. He took her away from me before my high school graduation, college graduation, wedding, and other important events that are so so difficult because I want her there. I blamed God for taking away my father. I was just developing a wonderful relationship with my father. I blamed God for leaving me all alone. My parents will never meet my future husband. They will never meet their grandchildren that they were both looking forward to but in no hurry to have them. This past year, God has healed me of all the blame and allowed me to feel and finally grieve for my family. I have a friend that when daddy died would gently ask me if I had started grieving yet. I always told her yes. I now realize that was a lie. I can now say I have. Now that my heart is open to these feelings again, I miss my parents more and more. I do have a wonderful support system through friends and family. That is something I thank God for each and every day. Even with them, they aren't there for me like my parents were. I miss having someone else in the house. I miss waking up on Saturday mornings to hear the tv and someone moving around in the kitchen. I miss not being alone. I guess that is the worst feeling in all of this is coming home to a house void of human beings. I was asked last year if I felt like an orphan. My immidiate response was no, I am an adult. I am not an orphan. The more I thought about it, the more I realize that is exactly what I feel like. Orphan. I do have to say I am extremely jealous of all the people I know that are my age and older that still have a parent or both around. You are the blessed ones in life. It angers me when people treat their parents like crap because they do not know what a blessing they themselves are distroying. I am missing my family like crazy right now. I often wonder what my parents think of my life right now. It was my mothers dream for me to graduate high school. She died the year before I did so. It was my fathers dream for my to graduate college. He died two years before I did so. The day I graduated from college was one of the hardest things I have ever done. As I walked in the procession into the auditorium, it took everything within me not to start bawling like a big baby. The day I got the news that I was hired as a teacher was pretty close up there too. I could not tell them that I finally am achieving not only my dreams but theirs as well. My children will never know their grandparents. They will never go fishing with my father nor do crafts and talk about Jesus with my mother. I know that my children will miss a blessing out of all that. That saddens my heart too. I wanted my mother to be there to help me set up my first classroom, to show her what I have accomplished. That wont happen. Last year, I asked my aunt if she would and I could instantly tell that wasn't her thing. I love my family and friends dearly, but nothing is like your own mother and father. I am simply missing my parents and lonely. I am not sure if I feel better or not, but at least I have gotten the ramblings in my head out of my head and into words. Hopefully now I can fall asleep.
I am 23 years old. I am moving now for the 4th time in 4 years. The closet I packed up today had three different boxes from three different funerals from each of my family members that have gone on before me. The first box is of my sisters funeral. She passed away five years before I was ever born. I never met her. In pictures we look exactly alike up until the point I passed her in age. I never knew my sister. I sat there and read all the kind words people I never even met written to my parents during their time of grief. I also looked at her obituary and remembered every single July and December we took flowers Momma and I arranged to place on her headstone. Then came my mothers funeral box. I do remember this one. This at the time was the most devistating event that I could have ever thought of to happen. I sat there and read all the encouraging words that people this time wrote to my father and me. I also remember feeling so numb for months after her death and just going through life. I remember stuffing my feelings so deep inside so noone ever knew how hard it was for me. This was a huge mistake. Feelings have a way of coming back out. The longer and more you stuff, the worse they are when they show up. I sat there today and read her obituary. How can anyone write a simple paragraph to sum up my mothers life? They just listed the facts, but that obituary did not show what a wonderful person my mother was. For weeks after her death, I had horrible nightmares about it. It got to the point I did not want to go to sleep. The next box I got to was my fathers. This was a man I always loved, but we were just becoming friends. He was a man that loved his family and loved to fish. He was a loner that needed his quiet time. It was difficult for him to trust anyone because in his life, most people used him as a stepping stone. When I found out he had cancer, I did not think I could handle going through all of that again. I did not realize how difficult it was having a parent with cancer and the emotional stress I was under. I had lived with it with my mother from the time I was eight. It was then that I realized the strain it puts on loved ones and I did not want to enter into that once again. We got daddy's diagnosis in May and he died in July of 2007. That was hard to watch my superhero daddy fade away while death took him daily. As I looked through his box today, I remember feeling so alone. I miss my daddy like crazy! I would do anything to have him hold me and tell me everything will work out one way or another. This coming from the man that spent six months figuring out if he wanted to buy a car or not and going over things over and over and over just to make sure. Although daddy often sucked at advice, I would still love to be able to tell him my problems just to know I had an ally in my corner no matter what! Once again, after his death, I stuffed my feelings. It hurt too bad to deal with it. I also didn't want anyone to know I was struggling so. For the past three years, neither did I. After daddy died, I jumped back into college. That kept me busy. This last year God stripped away all the distractions in my life. He dealt with me one on one. It took a while for me to get what He was doing. He was trying to heal my heart. Since my mother died, I had blamed God for taking her away from me. He took her away from me before my high school graduation, college graduation, wedding, and other important events that are so so difficult because I want her there. I blamed God for taking away my father. I was just developing a wonderful relationship with my father. I blamed God for leaving me all alone. My parents will never meet my future husband. They will never meet their grandchildren that they were both looking forward to but in no hurry to have them. This past year, God has healed me of all the blame and allowed me to feel and finally grieve for my family. I have a friend that when daddy died would gently ask me if I had started grieving yet. I always told her yes. I now realize that was a lie. I can now say I have. Now that my heart is open to these feelings again, I miss my parents more and more. I do have a wonderful support system through friends and family. That is something I thank God for each and every day. Even with them, they aren't there for me like my parents were. I miss having someone else in the house. I miss waking up on Saturday mornings to hear the tv and someone moving around in the kitchen. I miss not being alone. I guess that is the worst feeling in all of this is coming home to a house void of human beings. I was asked last year if I felt like an orphan. My immidiate response was no, I am an adult. I am not an orphan. The more I thought about it, the more I realize that is exactly what I feel like. Orphan. I do have to say I am extremely jealous of all the people I know that are my age and older that still have a parent or both around. You are the blessed ones in life. It angers me when people treat their parents like crap because they do not know what a blessing they themselves are distroying. I am missing my family like crazy right now. I often wonder what my parents think of my life right now. It was my mothers dream for me to graduate high school. She died the year before I did so. It was my fathers dream for my to graduate college. He died two years before I did so. The day I graduated from college was one of the hardest things I have ever done. As I walked in the procession into the auditorium, it took everything within me not to start bawling like a big baby. The day I got the news that I was hired as a teacher was pretty close up there too. I could not tell them that I finally am achieving not only my dreams but theirs as well. My children will never know their grandparents. They will never go fishing with my father nor do crafts and talk about Jesus with my mother. I know that my children will miss a blessing out of all that. That saddens my heart too. I wanted my mother to be there to help me set up my first classroom, to show her what I have accomplished. That wont happen. Last year, I asked my aunt if she would and I could instantly tell that wasn't her thing. I love my family and friends dearly, but nothing is like your own mother and father. I am simply missing my parents and lonely. I am not sure if I feel better or not, but at least I have gotten the ramblings in my head out of my head and into words. Hopefully now I can fall asleep.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Packing = Not The Best Summer Activity!
As I wait for news from the new house I hope to rent, I decided to go ahead and start packing. I have what seems like a ton of stuff and am reminded of this each time I get out another box to fill. The last two days of packing have been slow going! My motivation did not even last till the stuff came off the wall in the first spare room. Thats ok...Motivation will come. :) I am hoping to make a good dent in the stuff today.
Another big chore that needs to get done is my garage. I got bedroom furinture back in October that was delivered in boxes to protect the furniture from scratches and damage. These are big HUGE boxes. I still have some of them left to cut down and get rid of. 
Last night I had a horrible dream that I could not find my dog Sugar. My mother gave her to me about 10 years ago. She is starting to age and that makes me very sad. I love that dog so much!Thankfully, when I woke up from my bad dream, she was curled up next to me. :)
While I was packing the other day, Freddie got tired of me not giving him any attention. So, he climbed in the box I was about to start putting stuff into. Silly dog!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
A New Beginning!
Today folks, I signed my contract! Woo stinkin Hoo! It was such a good feeling getting that sucker signed. Then the nice lady handed me about 50 other forms to fill out by start of school.
I also applied for a house today. It is a nice rent house. I will have to put up a small chicken wire fence....but that should not be too hard right? I hope I get the house. That means I can finish planning my summer! I would love to visit some family along with packing, moving, unpacking, workshops, setting up my classroom, and taking my ESL test.
I am FINALLY excited about packing..It took a little while to get me worked up. Hmmm....I wonder how long that feeling will last? One box? Maybe two? :) I am so ready to be in Buffalo!
Tomorrow I have to talk to my Landlord again about moving out. I am having some issues with the lease, so prayers are welcome. :) Hopefully, I will know next week if I got the house and when I will be moving! Maybe next year I will get to enjoy a summer without moving. :)
I also applied for a house today. It is a nice rent house. I will have to put up a small chicken wire fence....but that should not be too hard right? I hope I get the house. That means I can finish planning my summer! I would love to visit some family along with packing, moving, unpacking, workshops, setting up my classroom, and taking my ESL test.
I am FINALLY excited about packing..It took a little while to get me worked up. Hmmm....I wonder how long that feeling will last? One box? Maybe two? :) I am so ready to be in Buffalo!
Tomorrow I have to talk to my Landlord again about moving out. I am having some issues with the lease, so prayers are welcome. :) Hopefully, I will know next week if I got the house and when I will be moving! Maybe next year I will get to enjoy a summer without moving. :)
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
House Hunt
Tomorrow I head out to Buffalo to look for a house. There is one that the realtor is going to show me that sounds promising. We shall see. I know God has brought me this far and will take me the rest of the way!
I also sign my contract for next year! WooHoo!!!! I cannot express how happy this makes me! Its official!!!
A sweet and dear friend is coming to visit with me this weekend! I am so excited to see her! When I am with her I laugh at the dumbest things ever! But I enjoy being with her! She is a dear and precious lady!
I will also start my packing this weekend after she leaves. I am dreading all the work but looking forward to being there already! I am looking forward to setting up my house yet again and setting up my classroom!
Praying I find a house!!!!!
I also sign my contract for next year! WooHoo!!!! I cannot express how happy this makes me! Its official!!!
A sweet and dear friend is coming to visit with me this weekend! I am so excited to see her! When I am with her I laugh at the dumbest things ever! But I enjoy being with her! She is a dear and precious lady!
I will also start my packing this weekend after she leaves. I am dreading all the work but looking forward to being there already! I am looking forward to setting up my house yet again and setting up my classroom!
Praying I find a house!!!!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Yep, It's Monday
Monday is my normal day of errands. This Monday was none the different. I have been making phone calls like crazy trying to find a house. There is one I will be looking at on Thursday. I am praying this is the house. Once I find the house then I have to work things out financially with the house I am renting now. I am praying for God to just work everything out with my current lease. It looks like it might be a problem. I will also be signing my contract while I'm there! WooHoo!!!! I simply cannot wait to be down there! I am sad about the people I will be missing here though.
Sugar's paw is starting to look better. It is going to take a while to heal, but, this doggy momma isn't so worried anymore. She has been eating up all the attention and love that has been coming her way since her accident. Freddie has been super dooper jealous.
I hope everyone has a great week!
Sugar's paw is starting to look better. It is going to take a while to heal, but, this doggy momma isn't so worried anymore. She has been eating up all the attention and love that has been coming her way since her accident. Freddie has been super dooper jealous.
I hope everyone has a great week!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Thoughts Of The Week
Here are the thoughts and statements roaming around in my head the past week.
1. My contract was approved last night! WooHoo!
2. I am planning a trip to Buffalo to sign my contract and find a house.
3. I really really really really really need a house in Buffalo!
4. I need to start getting things ready to pack.
5. Ohhhh how I am dreading packing again.
6. Oh so glad I got my dream job!
7. I hope Sugar's paw gets better. (She sliced the bottom part of her paw. I have it wrapped and she is not thrilled at all.)
8. I need to find a house in Buffalo.
9. I am so thankful for air conditioning as the tempturatures rise.
10. How hard is it to find kakki pants? I have been to several stores and cannot find them.
11. I have so many classroom ideas floating around in my head.
12. Have I mentioned I need a house?
13. The roadwork on my street is almost over. It is looking so good! Next week they begin on the street next to me.
14. I am so ready to be back in the country again! :)
15. I need to tear down and get rid of big furniture boxes in my garage that have been there since October. (Not looking forward to this.)
16. They are picking up donations at my house in the morning, so I don't have to make several trips elsewhere!
17. I get to hang out with one of my best friends this Saturday!!!! :)
18. I need to start packing.
19. When will I find a house?????
20. I need to find a rug for my classroom.
1. My contract was approved last night! WooHoo!
2. I am planning a trip to Buffalo to sign my contract and find a house.
3. I really really really really really need a house in Buffalo!
4. I need to start getting things ready to pack.
5. Ohhhh how I am dreading packing again.
6. Oh so glad I got my dream job!
7. I hope Sugar's paw gets better. (She sliced the bottom part of her paw. I have it wrapped and she is not thrilled at all.)
8. I need to find a house in Buffalo.
9. I am so thankful for air conditioning as the tempturatures rise.
10. How hard is it to find kakki pants? I have been to several stores and cannot find them.
11. I have so many classroom ideas floating around in my head.
12. Have I mentioned I need a house?
13. The roadwork on my street is almost over. It is looking so good! Next week they begin on the street next to me.
14. I am so ready to be back in the country again! :)
15. I need to tear down and get rid of big furniture boxes in my garage that have been there since October. (Not looking forward to this.)
16. They are picking up donations at my house in the morning, so I don't have to make several trips elsewhere!
17. I get to hang out with one of my best friends this Saturday!!!! :)
18. I need to start packing.
19. When will I find a house?????
20. I need to find a rug for my classroom.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Notes On A Busy Saturday
This week has been a very busy week. I have spent more days in the country than I have in the city. I am from a small country town, so I love being back in the country! Everytime I see the Dallas buildings and traffic, I get sad that I'm not already in the country yet.
Yesterday the real estate agent called me with three new rent homes available to view. I will work on my schedule to see when I can go down there to look them.
I have started on my to do list for moving and what I need to take care of here before I move down to Buffalo. Oh how I dread packing again and doing the moving process again.
Today I will be doing the much needed cleaning that I have been to busy to do the last two weeks. The first step is to bathe my two very stinky dogs! I do think I need to make a Dr. Pepper run before beginning this busy day.
On a side note, I went to see Letters To Juliet with Nana and Papa yesterday. It is a great movie!
Happy Saturday everyone!!!
Yesterday the real estate agent called me with three new rent homes available to view. I will work on my schedule to see when I can go down there to look them.
I have started on my to do list for moving and what I need to take care of here before I move down to Buffalo. Oh how I dread packing again and doing the moving process again.
Today I will be doing the much needed cleaning that I have been to busy to do the last two weeks. The first step is to bathe my two very stinky dogs! I do think I need to make a Dr. Pepper run before beginning this busy day.
On a side note, I went to see Letters To Juliet with Nana and Papa yesterday. It is a great movie!
Happy Saturday everyone!!!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
On The Hunt!
I just got back from Buffalo. I am falling in love with that town! The people there are so welcoming and helpful! I had a meeting with the Superintendent. He seems like a really great man. The final step is the Superintendent submitting my contract to the school board next Monday night. Then, I will be official! WooHoo!!!!!
I spent the morning looking for a house. I am kind of dissappointed. I did not find really anything I am looking for or need. I am praying I find a house the next time I go. God has provided me this great job (or at least after Monday). I know He will provide me with a house. I spent the two hour drive home praying I find a house soon. I will be going back in the next two weeks to look for a house. I pray I find something. At least I can start packing up the house and be ready for God to move.
The sweet people of the town I am moving to have given me a list of people to call. I will spend part of my day tomorrow calling and seeing if there is anything available that is what I need. Then I get to get ready to leave on Thursday to see my Nana and Papa! This is the busiest I have been in a while. I love it! I finally feel like I have my life back and its FINALLY on the right track again.
I spent the morning looking for a house. I am kind of dissappointed. I did not find really anything I am looking for or need. I am praying I find a house the next time I go. God has provided me this great job (or at least after Monday). I know He will provide me with a house. I spent the two hour drive home praying I find a house soon. I will be going back in the next two weeks to look for a house. I pray I find something. At least I can start packing up the house and be ready for God to move.
The sweet people of the town I am moving to have given me a list of people to call. I will spend part of my day tomorrow calling and seeing if there is anything available that is what I need. Then I get to get ready to leave on Thursday to see my Nana and Papa! This is the busiest I have been in a while. I love it! I finally feel like I have my life back and its FINALLY on the right track again.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Happy Mother's Day!
Happy Mother's Day to all the women that inspire me daily! Mother's Day for me is kid of a sad day because I lost my mother almost seven years ago. She was not only my mother, but, she was my best friend. She was the one person I know I could trust more than any other person on this planet. She understood me perfectly and I adored her. I knew if I ever had a problem, she always always always had the perfect answer. This is something I miss horribly to this day. There were so many times just looking at her face made everything ok and would answer so many of my questions.
My mother battled cancer for nearly 10 years before the Lord called her home. I can count on half a hand how many bad days she had attitude wise. She is the example of strength I try to hold my self to. Daily I strive to be the person she was. She had integrity, strength, beauty, wisdom, and faith that would make the devil tremble daily where he stood.
I would do anything to be able to lay my head back in her lap and have her rub my ears that special way she would and talk about my future. When my mother was first diagnosed with cancer, her mission in life was to see me graduate high school. She passed away a year and a half before I did. The day before she died, she rolled over and told one of my uncles, "At least I got to see my baby graduate high school." They all looked at each other as she went back to sleep. I knew God gave her a vision of what she had fought for all those years. About an hour later, she rolled over and mumbled, "At least I got to see my baby get married." I knew then that God was showing her all those things in my life that she longed to be a part of. I miss my mother terribly. Some days it hurts worse than the actual day she died.
One of the biggest blessings in my life was my mother. She was a true warrior for Christ and the definition of what it means to be a Godly wife, mother, and woman. If I could be half the person she was, then I will be an awesome person. If you knew my mother then you truly were face to face with a blessing from God.
My mother battled cancer for nearly 10 years before the Lord called her home. I can count on half a hand how many bad days she had attitude wise. She is the example of strength I try to hold my self to. Daily I strive to be the person she was. She had integrity, strength, beauty, wisdom, and faith that would make the devil tremble daily where he stood.
I would do anything to be able to lay my head back in her lap and have her rub my ears that special way she would and talk about my future. When my mother was first diagnosed with cancer, her mission in life was to see me graduate high school. She passed away a year and a half before I did. The day before she died, she rolled over and told one of my uncles, "At least I got to see my baby graduate high school." They all looked at each other as she went back to sleep. I knew God gave her a vision of what she had fought for all those years. About an hour later, she rolled over and mumbled, "At least I got to see my baby get married." I knew then that God was showing her all those things in my life that she longed to be a part of. I miss my mother terribly. Some days it hurts worse than the actual day she died.
One of the biggest blessings in my life was my mother. She was a true warrior for Christ and the definition of what it means to be a Godly wife, mother, and woman. If I could be half the person she was, then I will be an awesome person. If you knew my mother then you truly were face to face with a blessing from God.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Visions Of Boxes Now Dance In My Head......
This last week has been simply blissful! I went on an awesome interview, got the job, signed up for my first workshop, got some stuff for my classroom, and enjoyed the freedom God has finally granted me! I have slept better this week than I have in months! God is so good!
I leave Monday to go back down there. I have a meeting with the Principal and Superintendent. I am also going to start looking for a house. That is the next thing to pray about. I need a nice house with a sturdy fence for my dogs. I also need rent to be cheaper than what it is now.
When I get back, I will start the ever so fun task of packing yet again. This makes 4 times in 4 years. My grandmother asked me if I was tired of moving. I had to answer that with a laugh and a yes. I am not looking forward to my life being in a box and moving yet again, but I am so glad for the reason behind the move. I am already making lists of things I need to get done. :)
I leave Monday to go back down there. I have a meeting with the Principal and Superintendent. I am also going to start looking for a house. That is the next thing to pray about. I need a nice house with a sturdy fence for my dogs. I also need rent to be cheaper than what it is now.
When I get back, I will start the ever so fun task of packing yet again. This makes 4 times in 4 years. My grandmother asked me if I was tired of moving. I had to answer that with a laugh and a yes. I am not looking forward to my life being in a box and moving yet again, but I am so glad for the reason behind the move. I am already making lists of things I need to get done. :)
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
GAP: God Answers Prayers!
Thank you for praying for me yesterday! The interview went AMAZING! I recieved a phone call about 9:40 this morning from the Principal I interviewed with. He offered me the 1st grade position!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WoooHoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love 1st grade! I also have a friend that will be on my team!!!! How awesome is that?!?!?!?!?! I am soo very very very excited! I have to go back next week and meet the Superintendent. I will also start looking for a place to live! Now on to new prayers! I am just so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Prayers Are Welcome!
Today is the day folks! I am nervous as all get out! Prayers are definitly welcome!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Week In Review
This is the super yummy but oh so bad devil's food cheesecake I made. 
This is the new wall decor I made to go over my bed (Please ignore the dog beds on my bed. I didn't put them back on the floor before taking the pic.).
Roadwork has been going on around me since Sept. This is a pic of my driveway, or lack of a driveway.
This is my little Shih Tzu, Mr. Freddie, playing with his new toy lobster that squeaks, rattles, and when you hug him he says hooooonk hoooooonk. The dogs love it! (The lobster is as big as Freddie is! It is hilarious watching him drag it around the house!)
This week is going to be a busy week. I will spend tomorrow getting ready for my interview. Tuesday, of course, is the interview. I will stay with my friend Gracie that night then head back home early Wednesday morning. I have a couple of craft projects to do while I wait and PRAY. I am looking forward to getting them done. One day this week, I need to make a much needed donation trip to Goodwill or a shelter. A couple of weeks ago, I went through the house and did my spring cleaning. Now I need to discard.
This is the new wall decor I made to go over my bed (Please ignore the dog beds on my bed. I didn't put them back on the floor before taking the pic.).
Roadwork has been going on around me since Sept. This is a pic of my driveway, or lack of a driveway.
This is my little Shih Tzu, Mr. Freddie, playing with his new toy lobster that squeaks, rattles, and when you hug him he says hooooonk hoooooonk. The dogs love it! (The lobster is as big as Freddie is! It is hilarious watching him drag it around the house!)
This week is going to be a busy week. I will spend tomorrow getting ready for my interview. Tuesday, of course, is the interview. I will stay with my friend Gracie that night then head back home early Wednesday morning. I have a couple of craft projects to do while I wait and PRAY. I am looking forward to getting them done. One day this week, I need to make a much needed donation trip to Goodwill or a shelter. A couple of weeks ago, I went through the house and did my spring cleaning. Now I need to discard.
I am looking forward to what God has in store this week! I am hoping to see my prayers answered! I hope everyone has a great week!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Hugs
Today I have been getting ready for my interview next week. I am looking forward to it and very nervous at the same time. I am looking forward to the interview and seeing if God wants me there. I am so ready for answers and life to be good again (not that life isn't good right now).
On days like today, I tend to get a little lonely. Everyone is busy with their daily life. I live far away from way too many people. There are some I live close to, but things prevent us from seeing each other. Days like today, are days I would like a simple hug and contact with another human instead of through the advances of technology. Although the technology makes it better than nothing at all. Some days (very very very few days) I consider maybe having a room mate to help with that feeling.
On a happy note, the roadwork is moving along faster than anticipated! Yay! The sooner they are done, the better! Tomorrow I am going to try a yummy cake recipe!
Looking to the future...
On days like today, I tend to get a little lonely. Everyone is busy with their daily life. I live far away from way too many people. There are some I live close to, but things prevent us from seeing each other. Days like today, are days I would like a simple hug and contact with another human instead of through the advances of technology. Although the technology makes it better than nothing at all. Some days (very very very few days) I consider maybe having a room mate to help with that feeling.
On a happy note, the roadwork is moving along faster than anticipated! Yay! The sooner they are done, the better! Tomorrow I am going to try a yummy cake recipe!
Looking to the future...
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Have A Little Talk With Jesus!
"I once was lost in sin but Jesus took me in
And then a little light from heaven filled my soul
It bathed my heart in love and wrote my name above
And just a little talk with Jesus made me whole
Have a little talk with Jesus tell him all about our troubles
He will hear our fainted cry and He will answer by and by..."
This song is on my heart right now. I made contact with a principal today and I have an interview set up for Tuesday at 4! WooHoo! I have no clue if that is where God wants me. I am praying about it. If it is His will, then I will get it. If not, then I won't. I know He will take care of me. I am looking forward to what He has planned for me. I am hoping this is an answer to my many many many prayers!
And then a little light from heaven filled my soul
It bathed my heart in love and wrote my name above
And just a little talk with Jesus made me whole
Have a little talk with Jesus tell him all about our troubles
He will hear our fainted cry and He will answer by and by..."
This song is on my heart right now. I made contact with a principal today and I have an interview set up for Tuesday at 4! WooHoo! I have no clue if that is where God wants me. I am praying about it. If it is His will, then I will get it. If not, then I won't. I know He will take care of me. I am looking forward to what He has planned for me. I am hoping this is an answer to my many many many prayers!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Waiting...
This has been a week of waiting. A week of waiting for a job, waiting for the road work to end, and waiting for the noise to end for the day. Road work is still going on. I am no longer allowed to park in my own garage. Well, I can park there but won't be able to get out for the next month while they repave the road. Yes, thats right, a month.
I am so excited to see what God is doing. I know great things are on the horizon. Every time the phone rings, I practicaly jump on the poor thing.
Until tomorrow.....
I am so excited to see what God is doing. I know great things are on the horizon. Every time the phone rings, I practicaly jump on the poor thing.
Until tomorrow.....
Monday, April 26, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Be Anxious of Nothing......
Yesterday God really started laying on my heart about not being anxious but in everything pray. Today He is still speaking to me about that topic. I am still reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan. The chapter I read today went in depth into not being anxious. It is amazing to me how God works when He is trying to teach you something. Something I am having to realize is this is for the glory of God. It is all about Him and not about me. I am nothing but a vapor in life. So many times I am so selfish and look to myself and not God. God is everything. He is the beginning and the end. Without Him, there would be nothing. I am so blessed to have Him as my God and to have the opportunity to serve Him and His Son!
Friday, April 23, 2010
Do Not Be Anxious
This morning I started thinking about all the unanswered questions going on in my head. Where do I do my follow up calls? What is my next step? Where am I feeling God leading me? Am I to stay here? Will I even be teaching this next year? What are God's plans for me? When is all this going to be settled? (I could go on...but won't). Then everytime I started asking God these questions this morning, this kept popping up in my head: "The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." -Philippeans 4:5-6. I have had to quote this to myself all day over and over and over again. I have had to remind myself that God is going to take care of me. I just get fuzzy sometimes on what is my part and what is God's part. Do not be anxious. Some days this is difficult. Today has been one of those days. It is now the weekend and not much I can do except contiue to pray. Monday will start a new week. Hopefully, a new week with lots of answers. :)
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Those days......
You know those days when you feel like God is going to answer your prayers that day? You feel like it is going to be a great day and you are about to hear the answer to your prayers? Then the end of the day comes without anything. I am so ready to get this show in the road! I'm hoping answers come tomorrow, or at least the beginning of the answers.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
They really do like each other!
Every since I picked up Mr. Freddie and brought him home, Sugar has pretended not to like him. She can put up a pretty good front most of the time. Every once in a while I will look out the back door to see them happily playing......until they catch me looking in and they separate. Tonight I walked in my bedroom and saw them sleeping with their heads touching. Sugar is even laying on Freddie's ear. It is so cute! In June I will have had Freddie for two years. Sugar is not big on change. :)
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
The Answer Is On the Horizon
It is 11 pm and I am so tired! Sleep is not finding me though. The sleeplessness isn't like what it has been like. It is not because of me trying to figure things out. It is not because I am worried. It is not because I am wondering what my next move is going to be. It is not because I am stressed out. It is simply because I am so excited at what God is about to do. I am feeling God leading me and it is a wonderful feeling! He truly has blessed me with the best friends ever! He has blessed me with the most amazing family that a girl can even have (and might I add, there are quite a few of them).
I know that the last 13 months have been for my benefit. I have learned and grown so much. I recently started reading the book Crazy Love. I am only a few chapters in. I do recommend it. So far the book is reminding me of the details God cares about. It also reminds me of the greatness of God that I miss so many times when I get wrapped around the "Dear God I need." "Dear God when?" "Dear God why?" that I loose sight over the greatness and majesty that is God. This book is definitly recentering my thoughts from selfish thoughts to reflecting on the love God has for us. Like I said, I am only a few chapters in and can't wait to read and digest more of the book.
Until another day.........
I know that the last 13 months have been for my benefit. I have learned and grown so much. I recently started reading the book Crazy Love. I am only a few chapters in. I do recommend it. So far the book is reminding me of the details God cares about. It also reminds me of the greatness of God that I miss so many times when I get wrapped around the "Dear God I need." "Dear God when?" "Dear God why?" that I loose sight over the greatness and majesty that is God. This book is definitly recentering my thoughts from selfish thoughts to reflecting on the love God has for us. Like I said, I am only a few chapters in and can't wait to read and digest more of the book.
Until another day.........
Monday, April 19, 2010
Trusting.....
There has been some recent activity this week that is making the trusting God thing a tad bit harder than last week. He is still in control so there is no need in worrying about the 'what ifs' or the 'wells....' in life. We will see where it leads after 6:30 tomorrow.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
It's Raining It's Pouring.....Freddie is snoring!
It has been another busy day. I am so grateful for the blessings God is providing! I am amazed that no matter how many times I go through stuff, I always have so much to get rid of! I have just finished my bedroom area and there is already a nice size pile in the spare room! I haven't decided what to do with it yet. I feel so much better now that I am getting rid of stuff.
This morning I went to get something out of my car. Once I opened the door I smelled a nasty stench! After looking through the car, I found some raw chicken breasts I bought on Wed and the bag feel between the seat. I have opened the car up (in the garage because it is pouring rain today) and used almost an entire bottle of lemon febreeze. My car now smells like a giant lemon and rotting chicken. I hope the lemon takes over before I go to church in the morning.
I am looking forward to a great day tomorrow with teaching Sunday school, worship, and preaching. Maybe I can go through another closet or two. :) I am still on the job hunt. I am looking forward to new postings this week. Hopefully, I will recieve a few happy phone calls!
This morning I went to get something out of my car. Once I opened the door I smelled a nasty stench! After looking through the car, I found some raw chicken breasts I bought on Wed and the bag feel between the seat. I have opened the car up (in the garage because it is pouring rain today) and used almost an entire bottle of lemon febreeze. My car now smells like a giant lemon and rotting chicken. I hope the lemon takes over before I go to church in the morning.
I am looking forward to a great day tomorrow with teaching Sunday school, worship, and preaching. Maybe I can go through another closet or two. :) I am still on the job hunt. I am looking forward to new postings this week. Hopefully, I will recieve a few happy phone calls!
Friday, April 16, 2010
Its Friday!
Today is Friday and I am looking forward to the break of the weekend! Spring cleaning has made its presence here in my house. I am cleaning out closets, dressers, and cabnets. That is the plan for the weekend! I am looking forward to it!
So while I was cleaning out my bathroom I found quite a few handheld mirrors. I started looking and comparing which one I wanted to keep and which ones I wanted to get rid of. While I was looking I found that I am missing some hair on my head! I am a long way from being 30 and I have gaps in my hair! What the heck do I do about that????? How do I get it back?????? This is not the best news for any woman! I have always had very very fine hair but never have I had any gaps on the top of my head! Any suggestions?
So while I was cleaning out my bathroom I found quite a few handheld mirrors. I started looking and comparing which one I wanted to keep and which ones I wanted to get rid of. While I was looking I found that I am missing some hair on my head! I am a long way from being 30 and I have gaps in my hair! What the heck do I do about that????? How do I get it back?????? This is not the best news for any woman! I have always had very very fine hair but never have I had any gaps on the top of my head! Any suggestions?
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Good News!!!!
This morning I recieved a phone call from an ISD with some questions about my certification areas! WooHoo! God is working!!! I have never seen such a fast result on an app before. Nothing is scheduled yet...I am just so excited to see God at work! He is going to provide! He is so good! I am still searching for openings and applying. I am looking forward to the adventure God has set me on :)
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
NEEDED: Quiet Location
Two weeks after I moved in here they began doing road work and redoing all the water pipes. I live on the corner of a little street and a main street in our subdivision so they are always at my house working. I no longer have a front yard. It makes for a long day with all the noise going on and trying to concentrate on my work on the computer. I wake up each morning to my bed shaking very early in the morning due to the road work. It is so inconvienent! I woke up this morning to find my water off (which they told my neighbor but not me). I try my best to be patient with it and not let it aggrivate me although at times it is very hard.
I have gone places for the day with wireless internet so I can get apps done. That is only when I can actually get out of my driveway and the street isn't blocked. Once they are done it will be beautiful! I wonder if I will live here long enough to enjoy it considering I have no clue where I will end up. I have been filling out apps all over. I am praying that I can get my foot in the door this year and that the administrators look upon my app with favor. It is going to be a great adventure! I am still feeling such a peace inside of me!
Tomorrow is Freddie Star's second birthday! I cannot believe he is 2! It seems much longer! He is such a good boy! Both my dogs are very very very spoiled! They are my babies!!!
Well...time for my beauty sleep :) Tomorrow is going to be another busy day!
I have gone places for the day with wireless internet so I can get apps done. That is only when I can actually get out of my driveway and the street isn't blocked. Once they are done it will be beautiful! I wonder if I will live here long enough to enjoy it considering I have no clue where I will end up. I have been filling out apps all over. I am praying that I can get my foot in the door this year and that the administrators look upon my app with favor. It is going to be a great adventure! I am still feeling such a peace inside of me!
Tomorrow is Freddie Star's second birthday! I cannot believe he is 2! It seems much longer! He is such a good boy! Both my dogs are very very very spoiled! They are my babies!!!
Well...time for my beauty sleep :) Tomorrow is going to be another busy day!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Productive Day
Today has been a very productive day! It has been a busy, peaceful, beautiful day! I love being able to rest in my Lord and know He is taking care of me! I already have a pretty heafty line up tomorrow as well. All is going well and I am excited for the first time in a while to see where God is going to end up taking me. I am just so excited!!!!! On a fun note, I tried a yummy new recipe tonight. It was peach pork chops. They were so good! They had just a slight kiss of something sweet! All in all, today has been a great day and looking forward to another one tomorrow!!!!! God is so good!!!!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
New Adventure
Today has been a great day! It is gorgeous outside! Church was amazing! All is well at home! Best of all....I am at peace!!!! That is reason enough to celebrate! I realize now that where I am at now may only be a season. I also realize this may involve yet another move. That part I'm not thrilled at. I know I am heading towards a new adventure either here or somewhere else in the state of Texas. This week will be busy with me seeking jobs anywhere in the state instead of just my 60 mile radius. I am looking forward to what God has in store and what adventure I will be on next. Where He leads, I will follow. He will lead me to apply at the right place and lead me to the place He wants. Following one step at a time.....
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Relief.....
There have been a lot of things come to a head the last two weeks. I have been wrestling with several issues going on at once. My spirit and my mind are tired. I was reminded today that I was putting God into my box with what I wanted and frusterated that He is not organizing my life the way I think is fair or the way I want. The whole letting go and letting God thing is a lot tougher than it sounds. I have finally done that. I feel so much peace for the first time in a long time! Praise God! He has great plans for me. He will lead me and place me where He wants. I just need to go along for the ride instead of trying to give God the wrong directions and fighting it the whole way. He loves me and has the best plans for me. I am feeling so much peace and it is wonderful! I am still tired from the battle. Now comes the rest that only can be found in Christ. Tomorrow is Sunday....enjoy your Christian brothers and sisters!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Missing days of old.....
I have some decisions that need to be made. Here lately I have been missing my mother like crazy. I miss her prayer, encouragement, and advice. She always had a way of listening when I needed her to listen and giving the perfect advice when needed. I realize now what a true treasure I had when I had her and my father in my life. One thing they both taught me, this trial shall end and God will always be right there with you. I was so blessed to have two Christian parents who taught me about Jesus and the great things He has done!
Psalm 150
Praise the Lord
Praise God in his sanctuary, praise him in his mighty heavens.
Praise him for his acts of power, praise him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the hapr and lyre,
Praise him with tambourine and dancing,
Praise him with the strings and flute,
Praise him with the clash of cymbals,
Praise him with resounding cymbals.
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord!!!!!
Psalm 150
Praise the Lord
Praise God in his sanctuary, praise him in his mighty heavens.
Praise him for his acts of power, praise him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the hapr and lyre,
Praise him with tambourine and dancing,
Praise him with the strings and flute,
Praise him with the clash of cymbals,
Praise him with resounding cymbals.
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord!!!!!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Your Love is Extravagant!
Your love is extravagant
Your friendship it is intimate
I feel I'm moving to the rhythm of Your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place\
Your love is extravagant
Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known You consider me a friend
Capture my heart again
Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known You consider me a friend
Your friendship it is intimate
I feel I'm moving to the rhythm of Your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place\
Your love is extravagant
Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known You consider me a friend
Capture my heart again
Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known You consider me a friend
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Thoughts of the day.....
There are times in life when all adults face things they just do not know what to do. If you are a Christian, then you depend and trust in God to lead you. One of the things I am facing right now is where do I work this next school year??????? There are people that I love dearly are talking to me about jobs in areas close to them. If I could live near all of my friends, I would be a very blessed woman. These are jobs I am wanting but I am not feeling led to apply (after all these places still have my apps from last year). I do not want to miss an opportunity God may have for me and I know that beggers can't be choosers. I guess the question of the day is: Do I apply to these places or not? These places mean I would have to move yet again. That is something I do not want to do! I love where I live! I am FINALLY in a church I am so happy at and Jesus is preached there! I love that! I am getting more invovled there. I am teaching Sunday School and love every minute of it! If I move, then I would be leaving that! It has been so hard for me to find the right church that I am happy in and feel comfortable enough to serve God there. I have been praying about this and waiting yet again for an answer.......I just want to teach. That is my passion and a gift from God. So ready for this blessing and I do not like being in confusion over this. I'm really hoping I don't mess this up or else I will be circling this darn mountain yet again.........
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Momma said there would be days like this.....
On days like this I wish my mother would still be alive. At least I would have someone to talk to about the things I am going through no matter what is going on in her own life. I have the best friends in the world....but some days I just feel so alone. It would be so nice to talk with her about all I am going through right now. Days like this, I miss her like crazy and don't understand why I am left to go through this pain.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Psalm 142
"I cry aloud to the Lord;
I lift up my voice to the Lord for
mercy.
I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.
When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.
Love to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.
I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, "You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living."
Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.
Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about
me
because of your goodness to me."
This is so where I am right now. There is so much going on that is out of my control. I feel like I am so close to getting my prayers answered and getting attacked to try to keep me off track at the same time.
I lift up my voice to the Lord for
mercy.
I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.
When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.
Love to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.
I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, "You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living."
Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.
Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about
me
because of your goodness to me."
This is so where I am right now. There is so much going on that is out of my control. I feel like I am so close to getting my prayers answered and getting attacked to try to keep me off track at the same time.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Reflections
I just realized that its been almost four months since I have updated my blog. It does not seem like it has been that long. In many ways things have not changed much in my life to really post anything. I am still looking for a job and waiting for God to answer prayers I have been praying for what seems like forever.
This past week I have been placed in very interesting situations that I literally could do nothing about and had to fully depend on God for His guidance and safety. I am so grateful that I am His daughter and He is my Lord!
The past year has been a time of healing, restoration, growing, learning, and finding out who I truly am. I was asked the question on Thursday: Where will you be in five years? I have learned that you cannot predict what will happen tomorrow. The future is in God's hands. I never would have thought I would be where I am right now a year ago, three years ago, much less five years ago. I have had so many drastic changes in my life to plan a lot. The only plan I have succeeded at obtaining is my college degree. Everything else that I planned on either being or having has yet to come to fruition. At times I cannot help but wonder when is it going to be my turn. Then I remind myself that God has a wonderful plan for my life....this is only the beginning!
In the past three weeks, I have seen friends I have not seen in a very long time and all my best friends in the world as well. I can honestly say that God has given me the best friends I could ever ask for. My heart still aches over friendships that were dissolved and they don't even realize they were the reason that happened. God has made up for it multiple times over. I love my friends!
It was hard to get back to the real world after spring break finished. This week was a rough week on many different levels. I am glad its over. Tomorrow is Sunday and I get to see my kiddos I teach in Sunday School! They are so sweet! My church family has been a huge blessing in my life! It's so amazing how God works! He starts putting things together for me long before I even need it! So amazing!
I guess this is enough ramblings for today. I am still praying and looking for how God will provide my hearts desires! Blessings to all!
This past week I have been placed in very interesting situations that I literally could do nothing about and had to fully depend on God for His guidance and safety. I am so grateful that I am His daughter and He is my Lord!
The past year has been a time of healing, restoration, growing, learning, and finding out who I truly am. I was asked the question on Thursday: Where will you be in five years? I have learned that you cannot predict what will happen tomorrow. The future is in God's hands. I never would have thought I would be where I am right now a year ago, three years ago, much less five years ago. I have had so many drastic changes in my life to plan a lot. The only plan I have succeeded at obtaining is my college degree. Everything else that I planned on either being or having has yet to come to fruition. At times I cannot help but wonder when is it going to be my turn. Then I remind myself that God has a wonderful plan for my life....this is only the beginning!
In the past three weeks, I have seen friends I have not seen in a very long time and all my best friends in the world as well. I can honestly say that God has given me the best friends I could ever ask for. My heart still aches over friendships that were dissolved and they don't even realize they were the reason that happened. God has made up for it multiple times over. I love my friends!
It was hard to get back to the real world after spring break finished. This week was a rough week on many different levels. I am glad its over. Tomorrow is Sunday and I get to see my kiddos I teach in Sunday School! They are so sweet! My church family has been a huge blessing in my life! It's so amazing how God works! He starts putting things together for me long before I even need it! So amazing!
I guess this is enough ramblings for today. I am still praying and looking for how God will provide my hearts desires! Blessings to all!
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year!
Good morning 2010! How are you today? What kind of blessings are you going to bring me this year? How am I going to grow this year? What kind of person will I be this year?
As I have reflected on the past year, I have realized many many many things. While 2009 was a good year in many ways, I am so ready for a new year with new things. 2009 brought me friends, truth, forgiveness, blessings, graduation from college, learning to step out on faith, patience (or at least attempt this), learning who I really am and not what I am supposed to be to each person, a new home, a healthier relationship with Christ, learning how to be a better friend, how to enjoy the simple things in life, how to change a shower head, and many more.
In 2010, I hope that I see God answer prayers I have been praying for years. I hope to be a better person, friend, and daughter of God. I hope that I continue learning who I am without having to please everyone around me. I hope 2010 doesn't bring the loneliness that I feel quite often. I plan to stop waiting around so much because I am scared of what will happen. I plan to live my life and not cower down to challenges. I plan to work out 3 to 4 times a week and eat better. I hope to find love in many ways. Most of all, I hope to be used by God this year and off this shelf He has me sitting on.
2009 was a time of growth pains in more than one area. One day, I will be glad of the result. I am glad to see 2009 go but will take what I learned with me forever. I hope 2010 is a better year poured out with blessings from God for me and those I hold so dearly in my heart!
Happy New Year! :)
As I have reflected on the past year, I have realized many many many things. While 2009 was a good year in many ways, I am so ready for a new year with new things. 2009 brought me friends, truth, forgiveness, blessings, graduation from college, learning to step out on faith, patience (or at least attempt this), learning who I really am and not what I am supposed to be to each person, a new home, a healthier relationship with Christ, learning how to be a better friend, how to enjoy the simple things in life, how to change a shower head, and many more.
In 2010, I hope that I see God answer prayers I have been praying for years. I hope to be a better person, friend, and daughter of God. I hope that I continue learning who I am without having to please everyone around me. I hope 2010 doesn't bring the loneliness that I feel quite often. I plan to stop waiting around so much because I am scared of what will happen. I plan to live my life and not cower down to challenges. I plan to work out 3 to 4 times a week and eat better. I hope to find love in many ways. Most of all, I hope to be used by God this year and off this shelf He has me sitting on.
2009 was a time of growth pains in more than one area. One day, I will be glad of the result. I am glad to see 2009 go but will take what I learned with me forever. I hope 2010 is a better year poured out with blessings from God for me and those I hold so dearly in my heart!
Happy New Year! :)
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