Relief.....

There have been a lot of things come to a head the last two weeks. I have been wrestling with several issues going on at once. My spirit and my mind are tired. I was reminded today that I was putting God into my box with what I wanted and frusterated that He is not organizing my life the way I think is fair or the way I want. The whole letting go and letting God thing is a lot tougher than it sounds. I have finally done that. I feel so much peace for the first time in a long time! Praise God! He has great plans for me. He will lead me and place me where He wants. I just need to go along for the ride instead of trying to give God the wrong directions and fighting it the whole way. He loves me and has the best plans for me. I am feeling so much peace and it is wonderful! I am still tired from the battle. Now comes the rest that only can be found in Christ. Tomorrow is Sunday....enjoy your Christian brothers and sisters!

Missing days of old.....

I have some decisions that need to be made. Here lately I have been missing my mother like crazy. I miss her prayer, encouragement, and advice. She always had a way of listening when I needed her to listen and giving the perfect advice when needed. I realize now what a true treasure I had when I had her and my father in my life. One thing they both taught me, this trial shall end and God will always be right there with you. I was so blessed to have two Christian parents who taught me about Jesus and the great things He has done!

Psalm 150
Praise the Lord
Praise God in his sanctuary, praise him in his mighty heavens.
Praise him for his acts of power, praise him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the hapr and lyre,
Praise him with tambourine and dancing,
Praise him with the strings and flute,
Praise him with the clash of cymbals,
Praise him with resounding cymbals.
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord!!!!!

Your Love is Extravagant!

Your love is extravagant
Your friendship it is intimate
I feel I'm moving to the rhythm of Your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place\
Your love is extravagant

Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known You consider me a friend
Capture my heart again

Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin
No greater love have I ever known You consider me a friend

Thoughts of the day.....

There are times in life when all adults face things they just do not know what to do. If you are a Christian, then you depend and trust in God to lead you. One of the things I am facing right now is where do I work this next school year??????? There are people that I love dearly are talking to me about jobs in areas close to them. If I could live near all of my friends, I would be a very blessed woman. These are jobs I am wanting but I am not feeling led to apply (after all these places still have my apps from last year). I do not want to miss an opportunity God may have for me and I know that beggers can't be choosers. I guess the question of the day is: Do I apply to these places or not? These places mean I would have to move yet again. That is something I do not want to do! I love where I live! I am FINALLY in a church I am so happy at and Jesus is preached there! I love that! I am getting more invovled there. I am teaching Sunday School and love every minute of it! If I move, then I would be leaving that! It has been so hard for me to find the right church that I am happy in and feel comfortable enough to serve God there. I have been praying about this and waiting yet again for an answer.......I just want to teach. That is my passion and a gift from God. So ready for this blessing and I do not like being in confusion over this. I'm really hoping I don't mess this up or else I will be circling this darn mountain yet again.........

Momma said there would be days like this.....

On days like this I wish my mother would still be alive. At least I would have someone to talk to about the things I am going through no matter what is going on in her own life. I have the best friends in the world....but some days I just feel so alone. It would be so nice to talk with her about all I am going through right now. Days like this, I miss her like crazy and don't understand why I am left to go through this pain.

Psalm 142

"I cry aloud to the Lord;
I lift up my voice to the Lord for
mercy.
I pour out my complaint before him;
before him I tell my trouble.
When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who know my way.
In the path where I walk
men have hidden a snare for me.
Love to my right and see;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.
I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, "You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living."
Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.
Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about
me
because of your goodness to me."

This is so where I am right now. There is so much going on that is out of my control. I feel like I am so close to getting my prayers answered and getting attacked to try to keep me off track at the same time.

Prayer....

Sometimes I just do not understand........